Waves

I woke up in dissolution,

engulfed by material illusion,

covered by layers of confusion,

drowning in impermanent delusions,

I grasp to take a breath of

transcendental fresh air  

but alas, I fall short

from the perfect condition.

The situation is dire,

I am really getting tired

of being uninspired

and I feel that my heart is on fire

 burning off its last

spiritual desires.  

I found myself drowned

by the waves of material desires-

оne day being on the top,

the next at the bottom,

experiencing happiness and distress,

fear and hope,

love and hate,

victory and defeat.

Alas, wave after wave

my heart withers away,

without any spiritual gains!  

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

when will that day be mine,

when the waves of transcendental nectar

wash away all that I claim as mine?!

When will the waves of transcendental nectar

put off the raging fire of material desires?  

When will the waves of transcendental nectar

 wash away all the worries, lust, anger?

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

I have come to reclaim

 what’s rightfully mine,

and I am ready to beg for it,

all the time!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

indeed, I live on borrowed time,

so, I petition You to resign,

and allow me to hear Your Flute Divine!

I petition You to resign,

and allow me to join Your Dance Divine!

I petition You to resign,

for there is no time,

I am ready to

take shelter

and beg You to make

my heart a dime!

Your so-called servant,

is serving his time!

Follow the Spark

I have been fast asleep these days,

finding myself on the strangest ways,

spiralling down in the bottomless pit

of chaotic bygone adventures,

dreaming about the glorious past,

forgetting that it’s time for my soul

to wake up at last!

Doing my duties half-asleep,

acting as if I don’t give a single *beep*,

avoiding completely what’s in the deep,

hey, man, I am really walking asleep!

I hit a target, then a second, and third,

I am flying in the sky like a free bird,

and it’s me and I that control the tide of life,

‘till I realised that this whole time,

I have been, indeed, so blind!  

Every step that I make,

every word that I say,

every breath that I take,

is due to the Divine Spark within.

Indeed, I am simply a follower

of the Divine Spark,

the Transcendental Cupid,

nested in the heart,

reminding me that:

‘Divine Love is might!’

Follow the Spark

and you shall reap the fruits,

follow the Spark

and you shall know the Truth,

follow the Spark

and you shall find the Path!

The hidden path of Humility and Love,

the hidden path of Transcendence and Knowledge,

the hidden path that brings us all Home!

Simply follow the Spark

on the way back

to Your Friend Divine.

Stranger

Unwillingly,

 I jumped on the train of life,

blinded by my pride,

I felt I could conquer

everyone in my sight.

Friends and enemies,

I recognised at once,

the useful and the useless,

I sorted out on the shelves of my mind.    

Believing I was always right,

I started aiming towards the greatest heights.

Along the trails of this train of life,

I kept ignoring and repressing

all that was hiding in my heart of hearts.

A perfect stranger You appeared from the start,

but with every step and every stop,

I started piecing up all Your parts.

You had a turban, flute, peacock feather,

and a smile

that couldn’t belong to anyone

but my Dear Friend Divine.

We have passed a few stops on this train of life,

and I stumbled once or twice,

 yet, You, Dear Friend Divine,

never let me fall behind.

On the final stop,

You grabbed my hand,

and said:

‘Are you ready to dance till your final breath?’

Thus, from a perfect stranger to my heart,

You turned into my eternal Friend Divine.  

Always loving, always caring,

always guiding my heart of hearts

on the path towards Your Divine embrace!

Dreamer

Dreaming my way through life,

skipping days, weeks, and months,

lost in my mind,

I barely feel I am doing anything right!

I wake up every day with lofty ideals,

aiming for the highest goals

of serving the hearts of all souls,

yet, I am still asleep behind the wheel

 and barely can I see

all the snakes nested within my will.

Lust, anger, and selfish desires,

are poisoning my conceptions

of what truly means not to fall

for any deceptions.

Maya (illusion) covers my senses

from top to bottom,

constantly sprinkling me with

the desire for fame, power, and fortune.

Indeed, 

I am acting, thinking, feeling, and willing­–

but am I truly awake, or am I still dreaming?

‘Dream on, dream on!’ –

the voices inside my head keep on shouting.

Dream of what exactly–

repeated birth, death, old age, and disease?

Nah, it’s time to wake up!

In the distance,

there is an alarm clock going off,

sounding very mysterious, very ancient,

almost mantra-like.

Indeed, I can hear now,

the sound of the Call Divine!

Hare,

Krishna,

Rama!

Half-awake I aimed my attention at this Call Divine,

and then I remembered the loving hand of my Dear Friend Divine!

He’s been holding me by the hand all along,

trying to wake me,

inviting me to join His Play Divine!

It’s time to wake up,

let go of fear,

and simply forget all that is not dear!

It’s time to wake up,

‘cause dreams are fun,

but life is real!  

Directionless

Tidal wave after tidal wave,

the turnings of the mind

they

rise and fall, rise and fall,

and don’t let me float above

all that drags me below

the surface of my soul.

I try gasping for precious air,

but only my ego gets inflated

and my mind screams-

‘I really don’t care!’

I put up my hands in the sky

and I keep begging the Divine

for the ‘right’ signs.

Alas, all it comes to my heart,

is filtered by my mind,

who is almost never very kind,

and distracts me till the end of time!

I ask You for the Direction

where I can find Perfection,

but You give me only suggestions!

I know it’s all Part of Your Divine Play,

I know You watch me from the bushes and the hay,

I know You always want me to pray,

but hey, it’s time for You to let go,

and reveal Yourself in Thy Holy Name!

Without Your Grace,

we are all directionless,

not knowing where to go,

what to do, how to act,

what to feel!

Without Your Grace,

we are like shooting stars,

running out of fuel,

soon to be put

out of existence!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

it’s only Your Grace,

that can show us the Direction,

on the way to Perfection!

Illuminate

Living in darkness

is not easy indeed,

but pretending

to have wisdom

is worse of a deed!

Looking within

the mirror of the heart

I see anything but

darkness.

Shadows of

past and future

lives are

crawling down

the corridors of my mind.

I’ve armed myself

with the cloth and spray

scrubbing every inch of dirt

alas, light is not coming up my way!

My old friends pride and anger

are dragging down my attention

and completely polluting my intention!

I try to compose a line,

so, I can glorify Your Smile,

but only brother lust

dances on the central stage

of my senses.

I’ve lost my way

and have no more

things to say

so, I guess it’s time

to pray!

Hey Dear Friend Divine,

illuminate my mind,

so, I can chase all the

shadows away!

Illuminate my thoughts,

so, I can compose some

lines for You!

Illuminate my body,

so, I can jump and dance

for You!

Oh, Dear Friend Divine,

illuminate my heart

so, I can be

the spark that

ignites the fire,

which starts a revolution

in the hearts of others!  

Oh, kindly,

illuminate

my soul,

so, I can surrender it all!

Divine Teachers

Oh, Divine Teachers,

oh, Divine Preachers,

when will you

take me by the hand

and teach me how to play

instruments for the pleasure of

the Couple Divine?

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Oh, Divine Teachers,

oh, Divine Preachers,

when will you

take me by the hand

and teach me how to

decorate the clothes

for the pleasure of

Radha Shyamasundar?

#

Oh, Divine Teachers,

oh, Divine Preachers,

when will you

take me by the hand

and teach me how to make

the best of sweets

for the pleasure of

Radha Madan Mohan?

#

Oh, Divine Teachers,

oh, Divine Preachers,

when will you

take me by the hand

and teach me how to write

the most exquisite lines

for the pleasure of

Radha Govinda?

#

Oh, Divine Teachers,

oh, Divine Preachers,

when will you

take me by the hand

and teach me the most

exquisite dance moves

so I can delight

Radha Gopinath?

#

Oh, Divine Teachers,

oh, Divine Preachers,

when will you

take me by the hand

and teach me how to sing

melodious tunes

so I can delight

Radha Murlidhari?

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Thus, this aspiring servant

is calling on the Divine Teachers!

Thus, this aspiring servant

is tolerating the blows of the mind!

Burden

I carry my pride,

my anger, my lust,

in the chambers of my heart,

but this prevents me from

allowing myself to trust.

All the cynical comments,

all the insensitive jokes,

and petty judgements,

are the heavy burden,

that prevents me from following hope.

Humility is a mirage in the desert.

Etiquette and respect are some things

that I can’t really accept.

Taking care of others­–

no, no, this really does not

matter!

More tolerant than a tree­–

nah, that’s not for me!

True, I am not this body,

but I am within this body.

Thus, I need to take care of it,

I need to bear with it,

I simply need to carry

the heavy burden I have

acquired.

Everybody carries a baggage,

so dear mind,

simply deal with it!

I know it’s hard,

I know you’re wild,

but with the help of the Divine,

everything will be fine.

This Boy Divine

is always anxious to help,

us the forgetful souls.

At the same time,

this Boy Divine,

likes to make us cry for Him

from time to time.

I guess we have to cry,

so one day the burden of our

troubles will go away,

and eventually we’ll be

able to dance for this Boy Divine.

I guess crying for the Divine

is the tax that we have to pay,

so we may enter His play!

Well, dear friend Divine,

please, kindly show me the way,

where I can pay!

Lost

Walking down the

forest path

veering to the

left and right,

for a moment

I believed

I was always right!

Suddenly,

I stepped on the

thorns of pride,

and lost everything

that I hold tight!

Then, the mind,

started acting

not so kind

and fooled me

so I became

completely blind!  

Now, lost in the woods,

completely blinded by

my moods,

I forgot the purpose of

of my walk.

It seems

there is only one thing left to do

and that is always listen and pray to You!

It seems I am gonna have to trust,

transcend all my lust,

and simply beg for your Embrace!

Actually, being lost in the woods,

does not seem that bad,

when You have me by the hand!

Actually, being lost in the woods,

allowed me to value

every step of the path

and simply surrender

fully my heart!

Yes, sometimes,

I will stumble,

but this is how

You make me humble!

Yes, sometimes,

 I won’t know the way,

but this is how

You like to play!

So, dear Friend Divine,

let me lose my way,

let me stumble,

make me humble,

but let me also

enter Your Divine Play!

It’s time!

Enough of adoration,

enough of self-condemnation,

enough of sense gratification!

I have been wasting day and night,

slowly losing sight

of Your words Divine!

‘Come to Me… do not fear!’­­–

does not enter my ear.

‘Let go of pride and lust!’–

my mind trembles in disgust.

‘Serve Me, worship Me, adore Me!’–

it seems my heart is placed

on me only.

Enough of distractions,

attractions,

and petty reactions.

Oh, dear brother mind,

it’s time for you,

to start worship the Divine!

It’s time for you to heal,

the wounds of old battles,

the scars of childhood fights,

and the traumas of your old ways!

It’s time for you to rise,

from the ashes of the past,

and simply fly above the

hurdles that come on your way!

It’s time to sing,

it’s time to praise,

it’s time to dance,

and lose yourself,

in the bliss of His Holy Names!

It’s time to serve,

it’s time to help,

and surrender yourself,

in the bliss of His Universal Embrace!

No more procrastination,

no more intoxication,

neither infatuation,

rather only dedication

on the path of Salvation!

It’s time to be more humble

than a blade of grass,

more tolerant than tree,

 and simply serve everyone

you see!

Oh, brother mind,

it’s time finally

for you to

secure your

trust in the Divine!